♥ ♥

Counting blessings.

2011-03-31T16:08:00.005+01:00

It's been a month plus since I started working.

Work. The thing a lot of people dislike most. I, on the other hand, think I quite like what I'm doing now. Being able to learn and experience new things, may it be very very insignificant or the other way round, still it's something. Something I haven't dealt with before at all, something I probably have come across but didn't know how it all started. Good experience, I must say. At least I know I don't dread waking up early and get stuck in the jam while driving to work. Not forgetting one of the important things that kept me moving are the people there. Some say, 'work is just work. You're there to work, and get things done, not exactly to make friends and make someone your bff. If you happen to click well with the people at work, then that's a bonus.'

I've only been working for a month plus, but I've gotten my bonus, already. =)

Outgoing? Patience? Good PR skills? Know when to deal with what?

I personally think it's mere luck.

I'm blessed. Thank you.

Warren Haynes - Hallelujah.

2011-03-29T17:04:00.002+01:00

Beautiful. But of course, Jeff Buckley was amazing too.

Look what happened!

2011-02-26T09:12:00.001Z

Mistake.

2011-02-21T15:56:00.002Z

if making this mistake will make you lose two most important things in your life, you're probably wrong.

because this will cost you ALL things important. not only your selfish life, but all other poor innocent souls too.

currently listening to Flightless Bird, American Mouth.

current feeling? disappointed.

night upside down world.

Bon Jovi conversation

2010-12-28T19:01:00.002Z

laughed my snort out when reading this message history of my friend and I.

W: so what would you be doing when you're here in the States?

N: travel around. See Cynthia, see you, see other friends, see CA, see New York, see Niagara falls, see Arizona, see Bon Jovi.

W: oh you know Bon Jovi?

N: Yeah, we're close friends.

W: How did you know him?

N: He used to study here. We kinda bumped into each other. Then he went back to the states and became a rockstar, together with his other band mates. We lost contact for quite a while, and he was always busy doing concerts and stuff. He wrote a song for me though, it's called All About Loving You. Too bad things didn't work out. You know... He's always busy with his stuff, and he's over there, I'm halfway across the globe. Tough luck.

W: Yeah things didn't go too well between us too. He said he wrote that song for me too... I doubt he was telling the truth now.

N: ohh, that jerk. He gave love a bad name.

W: yeah he's vile, like bad medicine.

N: I guess he just wants to make a memory.

W: yeah memory my ass...the next time he comes to see me when he's horny again, i'll tell him, Have a nice day

N: he'll probably come telling you that it's my lifeeee, its now or never

W: I'd be like "if you Lay your hands on me, I'll make sure you'll ask your self Why aren't you dead"

N: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

W: HAHAHAHAHAHA!

that's why I always save chat history.

Hi bf!

2010-11-25T16:19:00.004Z

I guess one of the many things that make me happy is knowing that you actually still visit my blog knowing its almost dead. May it be accidental or just being nosy for that matter, still it puts a smile on my face.

Happy thanksgiving everyone! :D

Woah.

2010-09-21T16:52:00.002+01:00

It's been a while, but nothing much has changed. Only thing changed now is that I guess everyone has moved on, which I think is a great thing. =) Apart from that, everything else is still the same. Haven't been doing much since I got back as the whole world is working, in freaking KL. That's about 2 hours drive away for those of you who don't already know. I guess that shows we are actually stepping into another phase of life, with work and more responsibilities to bear with. Not gonna say its scary, cos that'll make me even more reluctant to actually start looking for a job, and actually moving on to climbing the career ladder. Let's just take this as an adventure, a roller coaster ride, that goes on for quite a while until I put a stop to it. I prefer it this way. =)

On a side but very important note,

Happy birthday Mummy! I wish you'll be showered with happiness and good health all the time. Thank you for everything and sorry for the times I lost my temper and patience. You're the best. =)

First night in Malacca after graduation

2010-07-22T19:18:00.003+01:00

Back in Malaysia now, for good.

The sound of wahlaitoi, lizards hiding at all corners trying to scare me, shorts and t-shirt walking around, and the thought of 'what to have for lunch tomorrow' always linger around my mind, only because there are too much good food around in good ol' Malacca!

mmMmmm, heaven. I'm currently in love with Malacca now, not too sure about Malaysia as a whole. We'll see.

As for now, bonus question. Plan after graduation??

I don't know. Will bum around and have a life first before I start planning how to screw up my life by working (Okay, not as bad as that I would imagine, but that's what the impression I get from most people).

Take a rest, and see where I get to from here.

Till then!

粱靜茹 - 夜夜夜夜

2010-06-27T22:44:00.002+01:00

The anticipation.

2010-06-25T19:56:00.003+01:00

as I'm typing this, my results are probably being uploaded by the school's system onto the website. It's been a long 3 hours and my results are not out yet, this is killing me softly. So softly I think I'm dead inside already. And it doesn't help that I'm also having a sore throat which I have no idea how I got it. I haven't been staying up late, I have been drinking lots of water, and I haven't been eating much heaty stuff.

Right. What do I do now? It's 8pm. Should I have my dinner now? I'm afraid results might be out halfway eating, and I'll vomit everything out instead. Stupid uni's system is still uploading.

This is utter bullshit.

Deleted.

2010-06-19T16:21:00.001+01:00

Are you sure you want to delete ♥?

Yes.

Deleted. Now what?

To Frida

2010-06-17T00:07:00.003+01:00

Right. You're home now, for good.

When we said our goodbyes right in front of our house, door opened, me in pyjamas, she in her usual outfit, jeans, sneakers and a leather jacket.

Only different this time was that there was an extra suitcase, and a guitar.

Yes, a guitar. She's just cool like that.

I didn't feel I was very upset, probably because it hasn't hit me yet. You were crying, wiping your tears, half smiling, trying hard not to cry, and mumbling things like 'I hate goodbyes''. Somewhere along those lines.

And there I was, standing at the door in my ugly pyjamas, looking at you, then I gave you a big hug. Squeezing you tight for one of the last few times, saying our goodbyes.

Still I didn't feel anything. Tears ALMOST filled my eyes, but I somehow managed to swallow it down before it reaches my eyes.

We both tried to remain cool (I know we're both cool like that, right? We even wanted to wear sneakers to Summer Ball!). Then you turned your back and I watched your back till you walked past this bricked wall, when I couldn't see you anymore.... that's when my tears rolled down.

But somehow, only two drops of tears.

Now, as I'm typing this, thinking back how our goodbye scene was... You carrying your guitar, one hand pulling your suitcase, another one carrying your laptop bag. You didn't even have hands to wave goodbye. I, on the other hand, stood there clueless, again in my ugly pyjamas, just watched you leave. Then I went back into my room.

Right now, somehow, I'm crying like a baby. How embarrassing.

Knowing that I won't be able to hear you sing in the kitchen, not able to hear you play your guitar, not able to have people come knocking on my door, not able to have someone to say: 'Hey hun, put the knife the other way round!', not able to have someone to say stupid conversation with, not able to hear and see you do your gymnast stunt while you're in your room.... etc.

I know I'll definitely see you again. This December perhaps? Weather is a teeny weeny bit cooler in Malaysia that time, I'm sure you'll survive. We both love the sun, don't we? And I'll make sure I'll store lots of cheese (Feta cheese, yes?), salad, and pasta, and possibly try to master meatballs dish before your grand arrival.

As for your wedding, which we both have no idea when that'd be, I'll definitely be there, in a gorgeous dress with a pair of cool sneakers.

Shall we make this a deal? :)

Will miss you terribly, Fri Fri.

And as cheesy as this may sound, thanks for the wonderful memories, you're one of the best person I've ever met (putting cultural clashes aside). And I really hope we're able to maintain this F word till the end.

F word here being Friendship.

I know this isn't our best picture, but hey, remember the good times?

With love,

Nicole *doing the mogli dance*

To-do list

2010-06-15T14:50:00.002+01:00

omg 101 things to do before I'm going back for good.

refund Geisha outfit.
refund topshop dress
refund DP accessories.
look for accommodation in Austria and Croatia and Scotland
check out car rental to drive up to Scotland!
coach ticket to London, and London to Cardiff, and also London to airports.
Book train from Austria to Croatia.
get money back from both housemates.
settle bills
meet up with people
Bath trip
Bag for Van
final shopping
tennis, paintball, badminton, jogging
Falafel, tenkaichi, kebab for the last few times.
and finally..... PACK!!

what's the date today?

15th June. That makes it exactly 15 days till I move out! Geez. Too fast.

Now, one day left till Frida goes back to Sweden. While she's busy packing her rubbish upstairs, I, on the other hand, am doing NOTHING!

bad shape. bad shape.

加油？

2010-05-24T01:56:00.002+01:00

没钱了，怎么还可以再加？

Note To Self

2010-05-19T17:55:00.003+01:00

not allowed to break down at this point of time.

may it be in terms of studies or relationship. Anything.

you're almost there, just keep going.

This Year's Love

2010-05-12T22:02:00.002+01:00

When that hurt gets thrown

Don't you know this life goes on?

也許

2010-05-03T00:46:00.002+01:00

got this from Vivian. tears rolled down like crazy while reading, but thanks.

I'll learn.

做不成男女朋友，做個特別的朋友。

兩個可能彼此相愛，喜歡的人，
但是，又不屬於友情，愛情，親情中的任何一種，
彼此不能成為男女朋友，只能做個特別的朋友...

也許是為了朋友之間的義氣，不能歸屬。
也許是為了顧及家人的意見，不能歸位。
也許是為了自己的前程，不能承諾。
也許是相遇太早，還不懂得珍惜對方。
也許是相遇太晚，彼此身邊已經有了另一個人。
也許是回頭太遲，對方已不再等待。
也許彼此在捉摸對方的心，而遲遲無法跨出界線...

不過即使沒在一起，
彼此仍能找到踏實的感覺，
仍然會保持不隸屬任何一種感情的關係。

但是彼此心底清楚，
對這個人，你比朋友還多了一份關心。
因為有了彼此，心裡總是被幸福塞的滿滿的...

即使不能彼此名正言順的牽著手逛街，
還是可以做無所不談的朋友。

彼此有喜歡的人，口頭上會說不吃醋，
心裡卻會覺得疼痛...
對方遇到困難時，
會盡全力伸出援助之手，
不會計較誰又欠了誰。

對方生病了，
會繳盡腦汁找藥方，
恨不得變成護士，陪伴在身旁...

每個人這輩子，
心中都有過這么一個特別的朋友，
很矛盾的行為。

一開始可能不甘心只做朋友的，
但久了，突然發現這樣最好。

寧願這樣關心對方的心情，
總好過彼此生活在一起受傷害...

做不成男女朋友，
當個特別的朋友，
有什麼不好呢？
你心中的這個特別的朋友...? 是誰呢 ?

很多的感情，
都敗在了現實的面前... ...
友情可以演變成為愛情，
愛情最終進化成為親情，
彼此就將友情直接進步到親情...

人生不過百年...

能牽手的時候，請別只是肩並肩，
能擁抱的時候，請別只是手牽手，

能在一起的時候，請別輕易分開，
能成為紅顏知己，請別刻意離開！

珍惜彼此之間踏實的感覺。

STUPID BANK

2010-04-12T23:24:00.003+01:00

I AM NOT AUTHORISED TO USE THIS SERVICE???
WHAT THE FUCK!
JUST WHEN I NEEDED TO CHECK MY INTERNET BANKING URGENTLY, THIS JUST HAS TO HAPPEN IS IT???

WHY WHY WHYYY!!
I've been with this bank since I first came here and I've never encountered this problem WTF LAH! not say got no money in my bank what! what's going on man??? now wanna ban me from checking my balance online also is it???????????

I'm so angry!!!!!

On a brighter note, I got a 2:1 for my assignment. Yay!

and here's my exam time table

10 May - Strategic Management

11 May - Japanese Management System

15 May - Strategic Supply Management

24 May - International Business and Marketing

26 May - International HRM

28 May - Services and Relationship Marketing

hopefully my birthday will bring me luck! :D

To-do list

2010-04-04T02:02:00.004+01:00

headache again walaueh! I know I rant about this stupid assignment for way too many times and its getting pretty annoying but what the heck, I'm gonna do it again.

stupid assignment stupid assignment stupid assignment. faster finish it laaaa, I still need to study for finals. I've got 1001 things to do after I'm done with this assignment it's not even funny okkkk.

I need to -

plan Europe trip when parents come.
book a hotel room for my parents and I for graduation.
get a suit for graduation.
get graduation robe!
settle US visa application.
look into US flight ticket.
STUDY!
count money again. :(
STUDY!!
and study
and study
and studyyyy.

so many things to do ok! not funny at all. :(

on a brighter note, just when I thought I was gonna end my day with sulky face, I have a blog post from someone dedicated to me and it made my day! :D

Thank you! You know I love you too! <3

So long. Farewell!

2010-04-02T23:17:00.003+01:00

being surrounded by different kinds of friends is a blessing.

friends who listen

friends who don't listen

friends who listen and give opinion

friends who listen and don't give opinion

friends who listen a little and give opinion

friends who just listen

friends who entertain

friends who don't entertain

friends who just sit around and enjoy being entertained

friends who will laugh at your lame jokes

friends who won't laugh at your lame jokes

friends who will encourage and support you by actually doing things

friends who will encourage and give support by not doing anything but pray you will do good

To name but a few.

but friends who are able to listen and give just enough opinion, entertain and know when is getting too much, laugh at your lame jokes and still find it funny, and actually encourage and support you even though all they could do is just remain silent but deep down, they really hope you can pull through, are rare.

people always say how much they hate awkward silence, how much they feel so uncomfortable about it. I am also one of them. But as much as I feel uneasy about it, I, in a way, actually love it when it happens sometimes with people you feel comfortable with.

being able to do our own stuff and look at our own laptop screen and not talk at all when we're actually staying under one roof, living in the same room, sitting just a meter away, within an arms-length reach, I feel comfortable.

The streets of Cardiff would not be the same without you.

Cardiff's economy will slow down by 2% once you leave.

Topshop and Miss Selfridge and ASOS's business will not be as good.

I don't have a shopping partner now.

No more dressing opinion.

House 12 would be only me for the time being.

My room would be much emptier now.

No more cooking partner with me.

No more partner in crime with me.

My bed feels much bigger now.

With extra duvet.

My table feels much wider too.

I can now play hide and seek in my room.

I can now do so much in my room.

But hey, who should I play hide and seek with?

Over the years, our friendship has gone through a bit of ups and downs, we both know.

We both know it well.

At times, we chose to say things out.

And at times, we chose to ignore.

A couple of times, I've said things out accidentally but didn't mean to harm.

And at even more times, we didn't wanna do or say anything.

We chose to just keep quiet.

Because, we know that's the best we could do, and it also is the best thing to do.

Sorry if I have ever done or say anything stupid. I didn't mean to.

Last but definitely not least, thank you for everything.

I'm not feeling as sad as others because I know this isn't our last goodbye. I will still see you when I'm back in lovely good ol' Malacca, or Singapore even better.

But, you and I both know it's not the same.

Because gone are the days when we both rotted but still rocked Cardiff.

April, 2007.

I would choose a better picture, a picture with bigger eyes and longer lashes or something. Haha!

But this is one of the first few photos we took together, and it was really natural. I like it.

Thnks fr th mmrs.

As for now, I give you my hand full of luck in looking for jobs and possibly a good husband. (hehe)

Till then, au revoir. :)

Love,

Nic

rant continues.

2010-03-30T18:43:00.002+01:00

i guess I really need to go to the library to do work. even staying at nico's place is bad, work going so so so soooo slow! Now that I can't access to facebook, it gives me more reason to update my blog cos I haven't got anything else to do. Except for twittering and plurking and checking mails, which all of those are just another reason for me to escape from work. And then when I get bored of those, I cook and find things to eat, do everything else except working.

OK that's it. I'm going to the library tomorrow to do work or it really will be the end of me and also to return the stupid purchasing and supply chain book as well. Costs me 15 pounds already bloody hell. :(

On a brighter note, corn and carrot soup and vanilla ice cream with chocolate sauce today.

And, I got my phone back. Woohoo!!

Assignment rant

2010-03-29T22:40:00.002+01:00

don't know how to do the assignment. HOWWWWWW?????????????

C'mon man, one final piece of assignment. why is it so difficult? I can't seem to find much information on it at all! This is getting really frustrating, I'm afraid I can't stand it anymore!

Is there something wrong with me or what?

This is seriously getting its toll on me and I'm about to burst out crying if this continues.

But seriously, it can't be that bad right?

Assignment only whaaaat. What's so difficult bout issues that led change in supply management and technologies that have supported the development of it?

And c'mon, just write whatever you can. As much as I wanna hand in a quality assignment, I still need to consider the time I have for my final exams which is in about 5 weeks time! Parents have already booked their ticket here and I really CANNOT afford to have the slightest mistake.

I'm sure I can do better than this.

If others can do it, why can't I?

Right? Piece of cake.

Something I don't already know

2010-01-23T19:04:00.003Z

Cassiey asked me to tell her something she doesn't already know.

I probably have something in mind, but I'm not certainly sure of it.
Maybe you could tell me?

anyway, back to UK tomorrow at 3.50pm, reaching London at 2145. Wait in airport till 0540 and get to CF at abotu 1100-ish. hope there's no snow or rain.

till then, good night.
Off to finish my final night, for the next 7 months, with my beloved papa. :)

Chinese Restaurant

2009-11-12T01:07:00.002Z

my toilet friend has left. Back to good ol' Malacca for her sister's wedding and then coming back again in end of dec.

Now, coming to mid of november and time to start my engine. 3 assignments due in dec, one of 1st and 2 on 7th, then go home on the 7th itself. I can't wait! We have plans all lined up for December with the girls. Then I have my little nephew waiting for me to play with him all day long. Then I have two new puppies waiting for me to play with them all night long. Only bad thing is my stupid cousin is going to Taiwan on 26th of Dec and then only coming back on the 23rd of Jan. WHAT LAH! I'm coming back to UK on the 24th then I won't see him for another dunno how long. Idiot.

I also had my friend asking me if I wanna go to California in Dec. I'm sooooo tempted but HOW! No visa, no money. And I have another 2 assignments due in Feb, one on the 1st, another one on the 4th. Guess I'm probably gonna spend my winter holiday doing assignments as well. :(

I got a job in this chinese restaurant, Phoenix Garden. Just taking orders and collecting money. Quite an easy job as I don't have to serve food or anything, but that fact that the whole ordering-writing down-paying-checking out process is not systematic at all! Menu's in English, and I have to translate it into mandarin, write it down when customer orders, then send it to the kitchen, then collect money from customers, then check if order's correct when food's done etc etc. Sounds pretty easy huh? But the whole system is in a mess! I mean, its not like its not a popular restaurant. They have so many customers coming in everyday, and so many orders for delivery from online and call-in, as well as walk in customers. They could do something about it, really. Make it computerised or something. Not writing down like old school style! And, its so funny the chinese characters aren't the correct one at all.

For example, customer orders egg fried rice. By right in mandarin, it should be 蛋炒饭, but I have to write 旦反 instead just so the kitchen understands it. Prawn Crackers, should be 虾片，but I have to write下片. I mean, seriously? What the heck is 旦反???? And what the heck is 下片, man? It won't be a problem if I was taught this way since I was young. But the fact that it shouldn't be written like that! It's like, I know the correct spelling for erm... facebook is F A C E B O O K. But I have to spell it like, Phasebuk, Feiseebuk or something. GRR.

And it was only my first day, the lady boss was like, ''OKAY AHH, NOW I TEACH YOU ALL THESE ALREADY. I HAND IT ALL TO YOU AH! IF MONEY IS NOT ENOUGH YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR IT! I WILL COME AND FIND YOU IF THERE'S NOT ENOUGH MONEEYYYY!!!!''

I understand lah, but give me some time to adapt to it leh lao ban niang. Your system so bad and messy, how you expect me to know everything in 2 hours mannnn! I don't even wanna mention how the paying system is cos I don't know how to say it. It's just soooo confusing. C'mon, I'm sure they can do better than this.

So, I'm planning to quit lah! (Please don't laugh at me first ok.) Not because of the whole stupid system, but I think I need to concentrate on my work. No point earning the money but then screw up studies right. Not like my parents really cannot afford. Still can tahan laa. Even though its only 3 hours per day, and I probably only work twice a week. Eh actually its not a lot also. Maybe I should continue. Maybe I shouldn't. Waaaa I don't know. =(

Strongbow, Bulmers, and Magners night.

2009-11-07T04:34:00.010Z

had a great night IN today with Cass and Sheryl.
Sheryl got sort of drunk today for about 2 minutes. The reason for that was because she didn't eat anything the whole day and then she had some cider. I personally don't know how much cider could kill but they say if you're not used to taking it, it might take you down just like that.

So, she didn't have anything solid before that. Cass and I were gossiping just like usual and suddenly Sheryl just got out from bed and went to kitchen. We didn't bother but continued chatting. Then we heard her saying: "EH, I THINK I'M DRUNK. *KRAAAANNGGG*"

Both looked at each other for about a second or two but didn't say anything cos we were so engrossed with what we were talking about before this.

We carried on with what we were talking before that and suddenly... saw a figure walking into the room saying: "ehh... I think I'm drunk." We turned around.

Then she collapsed.

Gracefully.

So gracefully that we thought she was joking. So Cass and I were like, "EHH, DON'T PLAY LAH."

And after a few seconds, thought Sheryl was actually for real.

We stunned for a while. Didn't know what to do till she actually made the "puke" sound then only we realised that she actually really wanted to puke.

So she puked and asked me to look at the toilet. I went and have a look, and found that the toilet seat was broken, and wondering very hard how the toilet seat would break. Apparently, our friend stuck her hand into the toilet bowl and dunno what happened and broke the toilet seat lorrr. So now, I don't have a toilet to use downstairs at my house. Have to run upstairs whenever I want to pee pee and poo poo.

But it was a great night after all. Good night, good cider, interesting event and absolutely great companion.

Would never forget tonight.

If my stupid computer's bluetooth is working, I would upload some photos for that night but nah... too bad.

Anyway, here are some pictures from the 1st Class International Party 2 weeks ago.

Good night world!

Earning moo-lah and saving it

2009-09-05T03:50:00.003+01:00

Hello lovelies! I've got my results back and I passed! I'm so happy!! And I'm glad that I'm given another chance (a final chance) to start all over again. Thank you.

I told my parents about it and they I didn't expect my mom to be so happy, which makes me very very very happy too! It even made me wanna tear. Ah, tears of joy.

I was talking shiro before this bout saving money and working hard. I've always had financial problems. Don't know if its because I didn't get enough money from my dad or is it because I've spent too much. To be honest, I don't spend much on clothings and shopping, but food and drinks instead. I won't mind spending like, 15 quid on a meal, although it does ache a little. And because I (kinda) love to drink, I'd spend 20quid or more on it everytime if there's any drinking session. This is bad.

I don't mind how others think about drinking, because I personally don't take it as that bad. I mean, I know the consequences, and I bet almost everyone does. Smokers do know about how bad it would turn out to be if they continue smoking. Even with those disgusting pictures printed on the ciggie boxes, they still continue smoking regardless. As for drinking, in my case, I, personally, don't drink that much. I love it, but I don't think it's the same as compared to before. Clubbing and all don't seem like a big thing for me now (at the very least, that's what I feel), not when I'm with my girlies, may it be in good ol' Cardiff or Malacca. Both companions are AWESOME.

So back to the topic. I was talking to shiro about this. And it suddenly hit me that I actually kinda worked for (almost) nothing. Well, I can't say this is all true because previously when I was working in that Japanese restaurant, I only earn like, what? 15 quid a day? AND, that it's not everyday. It's probably 3 days a week, max. So what, 45 quid a week? With 45 quid, I could spend 25 on groceries and cook everyday at home for a month and spend nothing else and save 20 each week, and buy nothing else. Which means, I'll save 80 per month. But to be honest, it's not that easy.

Anyway, forget it. I've made my resolution for this academic-slash-final year.

To....

spend less
save more
study hard
save more
study hard
spend less on drinks
eat out less
cook more at home
be a wonderful cook
get good grades
and wear that stunning graduation robe 1 1/2 months before this time next year. :)

Now that I've got the internet fixed, stay home in your room and watch dramas cannot meh Nicole Lee?!

Don't be gila babi and work and not save lah. Worked so hard, and then spend all the moo-lahs for fucks ah. Spend the money on travelling rather eating lah, tummy so big not scared meh?

Start saving, dumb nut.

midnight hunger?

2009-08-25T00:48:00.010+01:00

midnight hunger is terrible. Don't know if its a bad habit or is it because I'm really hungry. I hunt for food late at night. What makes it worse is that I crave for instant noodles. I've had about 3 or 4 packets this week. The more I eat, the more I feel guilty about it. It's like pouring 3 tablespoons of MSG down my throat and swallowing a candle, which obviously is quite disturbing.

I once read from an email saying to cure midnight hunger, just drink a full glass of water. But, it's just water. Tasteless. Yuck. And after drinking that, I'll start going to the loo every 10 minutes. And because of that, I cannot sleep because I keep going to the toilet. A bit similar to drinking beer, but a lot different because beer is beer. It's just different.

So, how can I cure midnight hunger without eating instant noodles, and without drinking a big glass of water?

If only they have Rex's siham char kway tiao, or kg. lapan yao tou mian, or oh jian, or mata kuching yong tau foo, or kg. lapan chicken wings, here, I would a very happy lady!

Next question.
How do I install this East Asian language thing for me to type and read chinese characters?

My friend formatted my laptop and now it can't read and type chinese characters. I know it can be changed under Regional and Language Setting in Control Panel, but mine doesn't have chinese at all.
So I looked it up online, it says I have to tick the Install East Asian language box. So I ticked and clicked Apply, it says I have to insert some Windows XP professional cd thing. But the problem is, I don't know where I put it. So, I looked it up online again, and apparently I could download the thing they wanted. I downloaded it and installed, and thought I was quite a genius for doing so. Restarted the comp, went to the regional language thing again and thought I could change it now, but bleh. Cannot install East Asian language. Kept asking me to insert the cd.

Yer. I installed what! Why cannotttttt. pfffftt.
And I got this windows xp professional something something installed. As a result, now I have this ''You may be a victim of Software Counterfeiting.'' staring at me, right from the bottom right of the screen.

Aandddddddddddddd, my comp has got this bluetooth thing but it doest work. I need to transfer some files from my phone, and I somehow lost the cable. So I thought bluetooth would be easy and all, but wth. Laptop's Bluetooth not working. WHAT LAH!

And, I wanted to change my blog template cos I thought mine's pretty boring. So I searched a few blog templates, really love it, but don't know how to change it. Tried changing at the Edit HTML section, but kept saying there's error.

Seriously, I think if women have a bit more knowledge on computing, we'd be perfect. hehehe!!

Okay lah. Fine lah! I'm stupid at all these.
So how now brown cow. Somebody help me?

On a side note, I'm going to hand in job application form tomorrow! If I can get a job, then I could earn some moolah and trip to Taiwan would come true! wawawewa.

Okaaay. I'm quite tired now and here are some random pictures (that's not on facebook) to end this post.

Posers Unite!
Malaysian Students' Society of Cardiff University 2008/2009 Committees.
Best team ever.

Main Building

Cardiff Bay's pathetic Merry Go Round

Day after exam finishes, and those three done with their degree exams.
Congratulations!

Han-Rui and Lynn

funny Ariff

Laine the bimbo

Jane

Frida doing her signature pose

Xiao Bai/Harley.
Very very very very very very naughty Shih-Tzu + Pekingnese.
(He's got both chinese and english names ok, don't play play.)

Max.
My favourite dog.
See that huge tumour at his chest?
Poor boy has got cancer. Can't remove it cos he's just too old.
:'(

That's all for now.
That victim of software counterfeiting thing just popped up and is staring at me again.

Good night world.

Bored

2009-08-18T01:20:00.003+01:00

So I've been living the life of a pig for a while. What I do is just eat, sleep, watch dramas, and sometimes shop. The living room has become like a cyber cafe with stupid Virgin internet that's not working at all for wireless but cable. Hence, one router, 4 cables for 4 laptops, watching own stuff for the whole day.

One from Tawau watching ANTM from season to season.
One born in Malacca, raised KK watching sports, which I don't seem to understand.
and two born and raised in Malacca watching Burning Flame 3 and cry until mom also cannot recognize because wong hei is too kesian wtf.

Watching drama and munching on Maltesers never felt so good. Goes even better with a pint or some Blossom Hill but I guess I'll wait till Jules is back from Bristol. I'm done with exams but still don't feel like cleaning my room. Haven't got a job cos Tenkaichi didn't call me and I didn't call them neither. It's quite shitty and pathetic cos if I don't get a job, then I'll be doing NOTHING but eat, sleep and watch drama for the rest of august and september. Gila babi la like that.

No money how to go for holidays! My taiwan trip with fat cousin, my plan to go to the states, my summer plan to go to Greece, etc etc. All can go fly kite.

No money how to shop! H&M, Primark, Topshop, Miss Selfridge, ASOS, eBay. All can go join kite flying club.

So how. Nothing to do. Cannot go back Malaysia. Cannot go anywhere. No job. No money. No wireless. No mood to clean room.

Hai lat.

Cried like a baby too

2009-07-09T11:46:00.002+01:00

Its confirmed that I'll be heading back to the diff end of this month. not sure of the date yet as I haven't got my ticket booked but what the heck, I'm going back after all. Doesn't make a difference when I am leaving.

I could've just kept it as a secret and not let anyone know. But what's the point. They are gonna know sooner or later. So, I failed my exam, by only 1 mark away. Both the subjects. Fuck you and fuck me too.

....

I can't continue typing anymore. Bye.

Butterflies in my stomach.

2009-07-01T07:35:00.003+01:00

omfg 2 hours till exam result releases.
I really do not know how I did in exam. Most people say you'd at least know weather or not you can or cannot pass the paper after you walk out from the scary hall, but seriously, I do not know.

I wish I could just have a short nap and wake up with good internet connection and fucking check the results but I can't seem to fall asleep. Kinda ironic cos I somehow wish the connection to be shite later when the results are out but I swear I would fucking slam and throw the stupid modem away if it doesn't work. Funny feeling, butterflies stomach and I just cannot sit still. Friends keep asking me to go out tonight and all I can tell them is, ''Not sure. Results coming out in few hours time. If pass, I'll go. If not, I'll stay home. Fuck.''

and they'll say, ''Ok. Check up on you in few hours time.''

Deep inside, I don't want them to because I'm having a bad feeling. ARGH. This sucks really. Worse than roller coaster ride. None of the songs in itunes are making me feel better. Not even my favourite ones. ARGH SHIT. someone kill the butterflies in my stomach please. :'(

OK. butterflies still tickling me.
What now? Connection fucking slower than snail. Cannot even watch Black & White or anything at all.

still tickling. Shit. :'(

I'm officially scared.

OMG PIMPLES!

2009-05-28T02:28:00.004+01:00

After applying the deep pore cleansing mask (which I haven't done it for a long long time), omg you won't believe the amount of pimples popping out all over the T-zone, man. :(

2 on forehead, 4 on nose, 1 one left side of nose, 1 on chin, 1 on right side of nose.
OK. 9 pimples. Can't find another one or else it will round up to 10.

But walauehhhhh, 9 pimples. whats the difference lah! Not forgetting the little tiny ones which I have no idea what they are on my forehead, but can't really be seen. But what the heck, still they are something that looks like zigot pimples wtf.

Cannot lah! Don't want leh, already exam time. Stressful and tiring, only entertainment is probably food, food, and food. Face already look like shit, dark circles, tired skin, and now you gimme 9 different sizes of pimples and 1734823 zigot pimples!! Where cannn?

I hate deep pore cleansing mask.

Yer. :(

Marketing & Strategy I WILL NAIL YOUUUUU

2009-05-20T02:34:00.003+01:00

Funny how I come across some people, who do all they could in the entire world, just to win someone's heart, and then throw it away.
I've seen them being all lovey dovey, glued onto each other like there's no tomorrow, hand in hand, mouth to mouth.
Sweetest thing ever.
And now what? One dumps the other after 2 months and pretends that she was never in his life before. Sorta went with another girl, and then claims girls change their (fragile**) hearts easily.

Where's the sense in that? You tell me.

I haven't got anything to say about this particular person. And I certainly do not hold grudge against him.
Perhaps there's just one reason behind all the dramas.
Perhaps there are thousands.
None of it matters now, really.

** oh mind I say, our hearts could be fragile but we slowly pick up the pieces as we go, with pride and dignity. And with that two very powerful words, it will guide us through. Not easy, but manageable.

So to my lovely friend, I know you're long over him (good job, we're all proud of you.), and I know damn well you're doing pretty damn good now. Just so you know, I'll always be with you. As for whatever that has happened to your august plan, have faith! You'll pull through. I will see you real soon.

On a side note, 3 more papers to go. Marketing and Strategy on friday. Fingers crossed.
Oh and, best of luck to you lot having exams!! C'mon warriors, we can do this!

ROAR.

Hotness

2009-05-16T20:45:00.009+01:00

btw this is the MTV. super sweet guy can die.
and the singer is a Malaysian. not baaaaaad.

oh and if you're wondering how I got those pictures, yes I printscreened and cropped them all.
I'm just mo liu like that cos he's too hot.

Karma is a bitch

2009-05-15T14:54:00.004+01:00

If words could be taken back after saying it out, I would.
If actions could be undone I guess this world would be a better place.
If time can be turned back, perhaps there wouldn't be any regrets.

read one of my friend's wall post saying she thinks she nailed one of her papers.
And was thinking to myself since when have I ever had that sentence in my mind, and when will I ever have that sentence in my mind, and why is it that I never had that sentence in my entire life.
Even typing this out makes me a tad bit depressed but my god, had 3 papers so far, and none of it I walked out from the exam hall feeling at least a bit confident. None, to be honest.

what the fucking hell is wrong with me, man? memorized them all, but somehow don't feel confident. walked into hall most students hate most, sat down on the chair students do not want to sit, sat for the paper perhaps most students may not want to sit too. But the moment I saw the questions, half of my mind just went blank. So instead of 5 points, I can only remember 2. wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtfffffff. I swear I wanted to punch myself so badly at that time. It's frustrating, you know?

Never before have I felt so scared of exams and stressed out. I used to joke about it when my friends cried before and after exams. I used to get fucking annoyed at them for being so pessimistic in life and they'll come telling me that they are not being pessimistic but its the truth that they feel like shit.

And I'll frown and say: C'mon. You'll be fine.

This time around, I guess I stand a chance again to joke about it and get fucking annoyed.
Only difference is, this time, it's in my face.

Karma is a bitch.
We all agree to that, don't we?

陶喆

2009-05-05T00:32:00.004+01:00

Good stuff!
陶喆 is amazing. Brings back memories.

4:21 AM

2009-05-01T04:09:00.004+01:00

4:09 am and still awake. Fed up of OB talking bout power and politics. Power. If I have power, superpower, I'll turn back the clock, and then study.

4:12am - Nelly Furtado's Say It Right playing on the-one-in-that-little-room's lappie.

4:13am - Don't think my brain can function well now. Nickelback's Far Away is playing. Brings back memories. Still remember I cried while watching the mtv. Cry baby, I know.

4:15am - Think I should really go to bed. Another long day ahead. And it's gonna last for the next 36 days.

Btw, I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVEEE THIS PHOTO. <3<3

Heeeeeeeeeeee xD

Happy Labour Day! Have a great weekend while I work my ass off for another month.

4:21am - Good night lovelies. :)

iPod came alive

2009-04-28T00:45:00.005+01:00

IPOD FIXED
IPOD FIXED
IPOD FIXED
IPOD FIXED
IPOD FIXED
IPOD FIXED
IPOD FIXED
IPOD FIXED
IPOD FIXED
IPOD FIXED
IPOD FIXED
IPOD FIXED
IPOD FIXED
IPOD FIXED
IPOD FIXED
IPOD FIXED
IPOD FIXED

FIXED FIXED FIXED FIXED FIXED

IPOD FIXED!!!

iPod finally fixed. :D

kudos to Yvonne Low.

Thank you very much! I'm so happyyyy! :D :D :D :D :D

Ipod died. Brain followed suit.

2009-04-25T01:48:00.003+01:00

I'm not feeling at my best now. Nothing seems to be going smooth for me today. Woke up early in the morning and charged my ipod. Was still syncing and working well that time. Had breakfast, disconnected it and then head off to library. Just when I thought I wanna listen to some songs while doing stupid accounting questions, my ipod just won't work! The Apple sign came on and started to blink non stop. I don't know how to reset it. I remember pressing down some button and hold it. So I just assumed its by pressing and holding the Select button and either Menu or Play button. So I tried both. Damn it went into Disk Mode, which I have no idea what that is. Was quite panic so I went to google it, and found out that I could exit the disk mode by holding down Select button and Menu. Got out of disk mode, but went back to apple blinking. Pressed and pressed, tried and tried all buttons but nothing seemed to have worked. Thought could go home and just plug it into the laptop and everything will be fine. But stupid apple is still flashing. And now, it's still flashing.

Maaaan. How could this be happening at this time of the year?? Life is not the same without ipod! Who's gonna keep me entertained when I walk alone and wait for sleep to come and do accounting and wash the dishes and whatnot! I cannot live without music lahhh. :( My nano has been with me since the first day I stepped foot in the UK, it's been 3 years! Just when I thought my ipod has the longest life line among all my friends, it just have to die at this time. I cannot believe it lorrr. Don't care, man. I'm gonna send it to the store and see if it could be fixed. Or maybe I just need to press some other buttons which I have yet to find out. Fuck lah fuck fuck fuck fuck.

And when my ipod can't function, my brain can't do too. Almost all the accounting questions I attempted today, it's either I got the answer wrong, OR I got the answer wrong. And I kept referring to the answers given to direct me, which isn't a good thing all the time because then I rely on the answers so much that I don't even think and understand the question before doing it. It's either I lack a digit, or be a champion by adding another zero, or I pressed the calculator wrongly. Instead of plus, I press minus. Instead of 180000, I write 1800000. Fuck lah fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

And what the fuck lah. 2 weeks till exam. How the fuck can I finish 3 subjects in 2 weeks? Fuck lah fuck fuck fuck fuck.

Eh, the fuck word doesn't quite look like fuck. Looks kinda weird now. Like, duck.

Ok. 3 subjects in 2 weeks. I can I can I can. What's so difficult! Study only lah, complain so much for fucks ar. Diu. Wanna be useless little brat meh.

But for now, 我要睡觉。

Should go to bed feeling like this.

晚安，地球人。

Hair Cut

2009-04-18T22:06:00.006+01:00

I had my hair cut, by the one in that little room. Thank you very much love! Despite some say I look like aunty or ah sum, I don't think I look that bad at all! I've changed my parting too! Fringe is much shorter now compared to the long flat ones I used to have. I'm not very sure if I'm not used to seeing myself with short hair or I just simply miss my long hair. I guess both have their pros and cons.

Here are some pictures taken during the hair cut, right at the front door.

the ''Ka Chang''

... and TADAAAA!

I still don't think I look like aunty lor.

Anyway, I think sashimi is the best thing in the world. Almost. Listening to music and enjoying my raw tuna and salmon with lots of wasabi are the next best thing. I wonder who came up with eating things raw with wasabi. hmph?

Oh, exam time table's out.
11/05
13/05
15/05
22/05
30/05
5/06

WOOHOO. I LOVE the time table.

Black & White and stupid revision.

2009-04-12T21:17:00.002+01:00

I don't usually watch taiwan drama but I think this drama here, is amazing. Nothing lovey dovey or stupid lame jokes. It's call Black and White. And here's the trailer.

What amazes me is that Vic Zhou aka Zai Zai, acts pretty good in this drama. I'm not a fan of him, but I must say he's improved a lot compared to before. Oh ohhh! The other guy is soooo hot I could die.

On a side note, its the final week of Easter break. Then two weeks of lecture, and its exam time. Typing this makes me shiver a little.

Exam. 2nd Year exam.

This is just too fast. Feels like it was only yesterday that I got back from Malaysia after winter break. And now its coming to the end of spring semester, and its exam time. How could it be possible? It's just toooo fast and I'm not keeping track of the time very well. 3 more weeks till exam. 6 modules. 21 days. That means I have what, 3 1/2 days for each module??????? Cannot lah! How to finish the whole syllabus in 3 days when they use 6 months to teach! WALAU EH. Yao mou gao chor arrr. :(

OK. Calm down. Go sleep now and head to library tomorrow. Study and freaking return the stupid book that made got fined for more than 10 quid. ... but, I NEED THAT BOOK! HOWWWW! Keep paying ar? Library has already sent me a warning letter for it asking me to return the book. Shit lah. This is so not cool at all.

Revision sucks. Exams can go rot.

Bye bye.

New Year Party

2009-04-09T00:21:00.002+01:00

Look what I've found??
New Year Party video!

Omg. This reminds me of fun drinking session, and best thing was... my dad joined. I was kinda drunk with my face looking like a dumb fuck. But then sobered up after a while. Losers were Kat, Joanne and Justin baby. Winners of the night - Jackie, Kirks and I! Dad remained neutral. Haha!

"Paaaaa! Miss Lee 可以喝!"

Good times. XD

Sleeping Baby

2009-04-01T20:51:00.004+01:00

THIS IS SOOOOO CUTE!
OMG. This video never fails to make my day.

Maybe I should....

2009-03-30T03:38:00.006+01:00

It's over now. Two major events of MSSCF are finally over. Was extremely tired after the whole event. Having to sleep for like 2 hours, and stay up for the event for about 18 hours, running here and there making sure everything goes smooth weren't easy but I have to say it was all worth it.

Cardiff European Games was a success. Everyone was very hyped up and I could feel so much spirit and oomph in the air. Especially when the teams were marching in and saying their chant, haha it was fun!

The only bad thing was that the weather wasn't great. If you're complaining about having 4 seasons in a day, haha we've got something better here. 4 freakiiing seasons in 2 minutes wtf. Laine, Lynn and I were walking to the where the shuttle bus was to go to Power League (the futsal place), it was sunny at first. Weather was superb. Then we reached there, waited for a while, dark clouds filled the sky and it started to get colder. So we were like, ''Ahh stupid weather. Don't tell me its gonna rain now.'' Well it didn't rain, but it hailed. So we quickly ran to a shelter, cursing the weather all the way through. Felt so cold. Waited there for the shuttle bus to arrive, then it started raining. We were like, ''Oh my god. Please don't rain now. How to play football later????'' Then while we were jumping here and there trying to warm ourselves up, the rain stopped. Sun came out and it was freaking sunny we can't even open our eyes wide. And we started to feel so warm. Gawd. If I were to say a craziest thing I've ever came across, it would definitely be the weather in the 'diff. Booooooooo to the weather. BOOOOOO. :(

Putting that aside, everything went well. We even got a gold medal for the womens football, woohoo! Okay.......... I dunno what else to say now, I'm very tired. Was planning to just write some stuff here and see if the boyfriend would come online but I guess my dear boyfriend is not back from lectures yet. I'm starting to think if the main reason of me writing this is to just give myself an excuse to wait for him to come online or is it that I really wanna update my boring blog with no life. I'm thinking of the former.

Anyhoooooooooo, I think I'm really going to bed now. Got to wake up early tomorrow to return the car. Ah wait, maybe I should wait for this song to finish. This song. This really nice song.

Maybe I should facebook for a while. Maybe I should watch MDG. Maybe I should watch I do. Maybe I should continue chatting with JooHuei. Maybe I should continue doing nothing. Maybe I should stop wasting my time and go to bed and stop waiting for my monkey to come online. He's still in lecture, or maybe having breakfast with his friends outside. Give him a break. Go to bed, okay?

Okay. Good night.

Ah wait, here's another song.

Good night. Bye bye.

Mini Monopoly

2009-03-08T03:23:00.003Z

I've had a very good bonding night with the 68, playing mini monopoly, me drinking fosters, jane being the winner, and sheryl being the loser of the night. ha ha ha! it was good fun, without having to think of anything. No assignments in my mind, no stress, no having to worry about what to do the next day cos we practically have nothing to do. No nothing, really. It's been a long time since I last played monopoly, and it's the first time I've played such tiny weeny monopoly that we all find it hard to look at the price of the land. Bleh. But haha, the whole monopoly was only 2 pounds, so who cares? As long as we can PLAY! And who would've known such tiny little monopoly could bring the 68 girls so much fun? Starting off with giving out money and getting ourselves into positions, ending with two pairs of sleepy eyes and two girls talking over the word "smitten".

All in all, good fun. :D And now... I guess it's time to sleep.

Night world. x

2009-03-07T00:02:00.006Z

I miss singing this song out loud in karaoke with my two lovelies, siham and te bak. Despite what you're going through now, just remember I'm only a screen away, okay? So when the bf part doesn't work quite well, that's when the best friend part comes in. Eh no, wrong. Best friend comes in no matter when, right? Please don't stress yourself too much, cos it hurts me. :( Really, whenever you're down, just listen to this, and sing it out loud!

And for you te bak, I haven't been talking much to you lately. Blame the time zone, and busy working hours. You know I still miss your jokes, and our very vulgar conversations. Everytime timberlake tells me bout you guys, I can't help but imagine and laugh about what you guys always do and the bonding days like in Sampan and Gogo Karaoke. Then only I realised how much I actually miss you girls. :(

与你分享的快乐胜过独自拥有

love you girls long time!

Whole lot of pictures

2009-02-25T00:59:00.015Z

Practice was tiring. With Dikir Barat, then Stomp, then Indian dance. I can feel my calf muscles stretching and thousands and thousands of cells dying from clapping too much and stomping my feet. My blood vessels even burst last week from exessive practicing. Everyone cheered and clapped and tried to distract us but yeee haaaaa, we still rocked! Indian dance was also the bomb. Possibly one of the best performances I'm guessing. Dikir Barat was full of energy with some cool hand clapping and feet stomping at the beginning and ends with our tradition pose. Not forgetting other the Malay and Chinese dance, and the play itself! This saturday, we're gonna rock the stage yo!

I should stop giving too much info on the coming Festival of Diversity. Will post up videos and pictures after the big event okkkkk. Ohh, tomorrow's the full costume rehearsal, I'm soooo excited! HA HA HA HAH AH AHAHA HA HA. *jumps around in a circle* excited excited exciteddddd!

OK. Calm down.

My kick ass itunes is playing Dancing Queen by Abba now. Shit it makes me feel like dancing! And also to watch Mamma Mia again! I've watched it sooo many times and I'm still not sick of it. So Justin Koh, you promised to watch with me when I go back this time. Don't ffk. And and... other movies, e.g Love Actually && Edward Scissorhands && I don't know. Some scary ghost movies okokokok. You go get the dvds ok. Give you 3 months time. (:

Anyway, here are some pictures I took back home. (:

LOVE <3>

Joo Huei and the sampat bf

Trying to convince my dad to play and drink with us!

2nd Attempt

3rd Attempt

Beer. Good.

Winners of the night!
Kirks. Jackie and Meeee!

And the LOSERSSSS!
Joanne. Kat. and HAHA.

Halfway there.

CNY Day 1

My face looked like that freaking pomelo wtf.

Jim & Van

Van & Juan

Matt. Juan.

Mr. Lee was a bit tipsy

.... and my aunt was kinda tipsy too!

Sindi and meeee

Cynt and me.
and I think sindi was kinda high that time, the moment she saw this picture, she said:''your cleavage starts from here.'' (pointing at where my hair joins wtf)

X'mas 2008.
Whole body was wet cos of the fake snow I got sprayed all over.

Edwin

Bleh.

FOD 6

2009-02-21T03:26:00.005Z

I am so tired I can barely feel my legs. Can't feel my body. Can't think what my mind's thinking. Can't do what supposed to be done. Another week to go and it will all finish, totally. Let's hope everyone gives their best, and put up a good show! I have faith in everyone. FOD 6 is gonna rock! We've got a full house, tickets all sold out even a week before the show. WOOHOO! Practices going on like we're never sick of it.

Love it when the directors say: ''C'mon guys! Positionnn! Bodies straight! Shoulders back. Heads high.''
Heads high. Hmm.... kinda like how the way these two words are put together. Confidence, that's what we're talking about.

... and with that, I bet we're gonna rock this show. 7 days!

on a side note, my phone bill has reached an incredible amount that i myself cannot believe, mch. but I don't really mind, and its all because of you. (:

Goodnight world. Love x.

LOVE

2009-02-13T20:58:00.003Z

Probably one of the best pictures we've taken so far :)

Love you, sweetheart <3
... and still loving

=)

2009-01-19T03:44:00.003Z

hellloooooooooo people, I'm back, after so long. Life back here is good. Good food, cheap beer and nice people.

Anyway, went to my cousin, Joey's wedding few days after I got home. Was held at the Bukit Jalil golf course. Everything went well. Got a shock she got a super short hair cut but was still stunning that night. The husband, Ken, was holding a rose, singing loving youuu, is easy cos you're beautiful~ and walked towards her and while singing. I was smiling all the way when I saw that, it made me melt a little. The couple even danced waltz halfway through! I was like, waaaaaaaaa. So, after that we went to some super lame lala club cos I don't know why, and hung around there. Drank a little. Stupid dress was too small and tight for me cos I was too fat, and I'm still fat. But it was all good fun seeing the family again. I'll post the pictures up later cos I'm using my dad's laptop now.

So I've been hanging around here in good ol' Malacca, accompanied my princess grandma to physio and some docs and asked the physiotherapist about my flat feet, ate around, suffered from food poisoning, high fever, recovered, karaoked, drank, ate around, met some new nice friends, met someone special, partied like a-bit-less-than a rockstar with no hangovers (woohoo!), ate around, had slight food poisoning again (what a loser!), recovered, ate around, and still eating like a monster.

thanks to some wonderful friends and a very lovely someone who accompanied me everywhere, eating all sorts of food, and doing all kinds of stupid yet sweet things. I love you all long time!

.... and you, You.
What can I say about you?

you have been so nice all these while, even though there were some ups and downs in the middle, still we tried our very best to give each other space and time to sort things out and make things clear. I appreciate you for settling things and solving problem the way it should be done, and I thank you for being honest, even though it was a little too late. But people say, its never too late to be honest. So, really, I appreciate you for telling. =)

Now, things have been (almost) settled. Perhaps PSP and phone bills are the only thing that's bothering you. Not forgetting me going away soon. But I'm pretty sure we can overcome this, righttt? I've been doing it with many other lovely people back home, like possibly over 20 people. You being one, and the only one.... shouldn't be that bad, I hope? No matter what it is, live still goes on. You living yours, me living mine, friends living friends', couple living couples', they living theirs, we living ours. Riiight?

Anyway, we've been happy.
Always had, probably always will.
I don't know.

Seth Cohen is cute.
I miss O.C...
..... and I miss you crazily. =)

2008-12-28T06:01:00.003Z

so, the last post was about distance. Now that its being mentioned, don't you just feel it even more? It's not about the lyrics this time, but the word itself. The distance. The gap.

I don't know if its just me or is it something/someone else. Maybe I'm just being a stupid sensitive bitch, which most of the time, I think I am. If things are getting to hectic and tight up, I guess no matter how much I care, it still doesn't make a difference, does it?

alright. that stupid emo paragraph up there is all said and done. Really, I just wanna get over it, ffs.

Now that I'm back, I just wanna sit and chill. With good people, good food. No stressful talks, no hard feelings, no being careful with what I have to say, no secrets around, not much of a drama, no bitchy people, no stupid guys... just plain talk, and non stop laughter. And with my lovely family around, all the cousins and aunts and uncles coming back for cny. What more can I ask? <3

The Distance

2008-12-27T08:46:00.002Z

Don Henley

2008-12-14T02:44:00.004Z

got this from ChiaYi's blog.
I think it's such a beautiful song.

It's about forgiveness.

To be honest

2008-12-12T00:20:00.004Z

.... as much as I want you here terribly, I still try my very best not to even think of it. It's not easy, I must say. It has never been easy.

Being home alone is actually kinda scary. I may be the bravest among the 68s, but staying alone at home isn't quite a decent thing to do.
To be honest, I'm scared.

... and I'm tired.
Tired of things, tired of you, tired of me, tired of being asked, tired of being played like a game, tired of being looked at, tired of being read like a book, tired of doing the same thing but nothing, tired of trying to do things but... nothing, really.
I'm really knackered now but things just keep coming in. As if I have all the energy and time in the entire universe to do it.
To be honest, I don't. I seriously don't.

Having tons of things to do before I can finally fly isn't appealing at all. Not when it concerns about responsibilities and the thought of it really makes my shoulder much heavier each time.
To be honest, I wouldn't have taken this up if I knew it was going to be this hectic. Compared to others, I must say mine's easy peasy, but perhaps I'm just not strong enough, like them.

And as for another you, you....
To be honest, I wished about it, that I was there with you, everyday.
Every single day.

And to be very honest this time, this one last time.
I miss you.
Finally.

Friday Fun

2008-12-05T00:28:00.004Z

Whoa. It's been quite some time again. Sometimes I wish I could just close the blog down since I don't really update it anyway, and its not like there are many readers, plus the posts aren't like top notch. But.... guess I'll just leave it, not like its harmful.

It's coming to the end of the term now. One more day till end of week 10, another week till end of week 11, and there goes Autumn semester, and starts the winter holiday. I really can't believe how fast time passes. Felt like it was only yesterday I started the first week of class. Sometimes I do wonder whether if its me or its the earth that's spinning faster. It's waaay to fast I'm afraid I can't catch up, but I'll try running as fast as I can. :)

Already done with (only) one assignment, another one due on the 11th, but it SHOULDN'T be a problem. Figured assignments are actually quite fun, only thing is that its always hard to start. But let's just put that aside first.

Lately, I've been emailing someone pretty much. Thank you so much for cheering me up. I know you have your ups and downs, but that's life, isn't it? You just made my life much better and easier everyday. So, don't worry so much okaaay? If it's gonna work, it's gonna work regardless. Just remember if there's anything, I'm only a screen away! And I'll see you reaaal soon, okay??

Anyway, Jane's sister is coming down to the diff tomorrow, and we're going for dinner at Henrys with the lovelies, and also to Winter Wonderland! Since its a girls night out, we're gonna play dress up! Killer heels. Light Make-up. Pretty clothes. Drop dead gorgeous cardiff girls + a londoner. What more can you ask? It's gonna be fun fun fun! :D Friday Fun.

Can't Wait

2008-11-18T23:30:00.005Z

Assignment really is shit. Procrastination is worst. I just can't seem to get myself started on anything, at all. Tomorrow's wednesday, and I'll make damn sure I start something with my hongkie friend, Nico Lee(Yes, almost the same name). 40% honey, 40%. It's quite a lot, really. So, I'm gonna get up early, and go to lecture, and then to tutorial, and then lunch, and then START my assignment, and then to practise, and then come back for dinner, and then for a drink. =) A pint of chilled beer and some music would be more than perfect for me. Can't wait!

18th Nov now. 3 weeks till winter holiday. WOOHOO! Can't wait! Another thing for me to look forward to. Was planning to go somewhere during winter with the ass kicking housemates yesterday, and we sorta came up with something. REAAAAAAAAALLY cheap flight tickets to..... Spain! Some might say it won't be that nice to go to Spain during winter, but seriously.... where else can we go? You tell me. Plus, the flight ticket is jaw dropping cheap. We're already halfway planning what clothes should we bring and which heels should we wear cos we're planning to club for a day or two in Barcelona! WOOHOO! So, this... is Can't Wait #3.

Another a month or so, and its X'mas. Don't think I'll be in London this time around, prolly gonna spend X'mas 2008 in the diff. X'mas is not like a big thing to me, not when I'm in Malaysia apart from stupid series of parties, and paying crazy cover charge just to go into the club and squeeze around with sweaty people and get your hair and clothes all smell like smoke, and if you're lucky, you might get some ahbengs with those funky clothes coming up to you and say things like, ''Xiao Jie, Can be friend ma?'', wtf. Haha those were the days. I remember Cynthia telling me there was this fat ah beng guy that came up to her and say things like,''Xiao Jie, Can be friend? You can have me for 5 minutes, and do whatever you want. This 5 minutes, I'm your boyfriend.''

I laughed my snort out.
I can imagine her face going like, WHAAAAAAAAAT??? And I swear if I was there, I'd give her that look, and then look at that guy, with my eyes and mouth wide open, and try very hard not to laugh. Perhaps let that ah beng guy talk to her for a while, while she tries her very best to make eye signal to me, hinting me to save her, and after 3 1/2 minutes, then there I go. Those were the days... and I really do miss it.
In order to do that again, I guess I'll have to wait till summer. So, that's Can't wait #4.

you girls are being missed!
<3

Bento Box vs Topshop Coat

2008-11-11T11:30:00.002Z

So I've been listening to my own station on yahoo music lately, I simply love it. Started doing this few years back when I found out the ex listens to it, while playing dota. Found it quite cool so I followed. Still finding it very cool tho some of the songs can't be found in limewire.

Anyway, schools good. I lost a bento box to the idiot last week. The deal was to go to all the lectures and tutorials that week. Whoever misses one, will have to treat each other a bento box. So, it was an even week, I have 9am lectures and tutorial almost the whole week. Wednesday's lecture was cancelled, so it wasn't that bad. But, it didn't make any difference tho since I missed the friday 9am lecture anyway. Cannot la! All 9am during even week, and I always stay up late for nothing. So basically, I only slept for 4 hours on average. Oh no wait, I have to say this. I skipped the friday lecture, and slept all the way till afternoon. Suddenly, the idiot called and said:''OIII! Nicole Lee! I think I found your coat!! Is it like dark grey in colour, with fake buttons at the side, and a bit flare at the bottom?''

Me:''I'm not sure ehhh. I think so, why?''
She:''I think its your coat laaa. Trust me! I'm pretty sure its the one you've been searching high and low for.''
Me:''Cannot be la. I've been looking for it for the past few weeks and I couldn't find it. You were with me all the time, you know it.''
She:''Yes, but I'm pretty sure this is the one!! REALLLYYY. TRUST MEEE!''
Me:''..... don't think so la. Don't give me hope anymore.''
She: ''No you've gotta trust me! Size 8 somemore. You can not trust me on other things, but when it comes to clothes, you've gotta trust me!''
Me: ''.... OKAY. So what now?''
She: ''Okay, I'm in Topshop now, and I'm gonna hold on to your coat till you come. It's the last piece now. I'm gonna hold on to it, and YOU, go get changed and take a cab here NOW! If it's not the coat you want, you don't have to buy me bento box, cos as far as I know, you skipped today's lecture. But if I'm correct, then you have to buy me bento box no matter what. DEAL?''
Me: ''What kinda deal is that, man? So I'm gonna buy you bento box ANYWAY?''
She: ''Yalah. You want your coat or not? I can put it back on to the rack as of now.''
Me: ''OKAY FINE. I'll be there in 10.''

So I changed, and called a cab and vvrroooooommm! I went. Practically ran into Topshop, eyes scanned for her, and there she was, holding on to my coat I fell in love with the first time I put it on. So, I had the fastest shopping, and then we went to look for boots cos she wanted to buy a pair of boots. Already aimed at it for a few weeks, and she finally got it. She also pestered me to buy a pair. So, I had another super quick shopping as well. Spent quite a lot, but it's pretty worth it. I haven't done such shopping in AGES. The feeling of buying it without having to worry bout not having enough money, without having to think twice. Without having to take it, try it on, and then put it back and give a shy smile and say ''No, sorry...'' when the sales girls asked "Any good?", when in actual fact, its pretty damn good. Thanks to tenkaichi, got a job there hence the extra income. Shopping has never felt so good. :)

Anyway, I've gotten the calendar up my wall. Stating the important dates, assignment due dates (bleh), birthdays, counting down the days till I see you again. Emailing has never been so fun, and has never been something I look forward to almost everyday. Reading something has never made me laugh so hard, and smile like some idiot. Mentioning bout next summer has never made my heart beat so fast, and practically grin like a complete fool most of the time. Haha I thought about it before I went to bed the other day and I smiled. That was kinda stupid. But for now, I guess all I can say is... I miss you darling, and I'll make damn sure I see you next summer. :)

New crush. I like you, so what now?

Over?

2008-11-04T19:44:00.003Z

So, halloween's over. Hangover's over. Fun times are almost over. Here comes workload. :( Assignments... Ass. Before that, lemme take a long deep breath.

Right. 6 assignments to hand in. First one's due 28th this month, and I still don't know what should I do for the assignment. Another one in dec, 2 in Jan, 1 in Feb, and last one in March. Not too bad. But still....

Anyway, life has been good so far, except for some dramas here and there, and erm one of my relatives just passed away. I'm not really close to him, but still I feel the pain. I guess the hardest thing for him was leaving the two kids here. I remember playing with them and the way they come telling me how great their dad is. I can't imagine how they would've reacted when they found out. I didn't know what to say when I heard about it. Anyway, may you rest in peace. My thoughts will always always be with you.

Let's not talk about that anymore. Bryan Adams was here in the 'diff yesterday! I wanted to go soooo badly ever since I found out earlier this year that he was gonna come on Nov 3rd. I've been a big fan of him, and I swear I'd be the happiest girl alive if I was there, listening to him singing Everything I do, or Please forgive me, or Summer of 69, or .... anything. But I guess shit just happens, don't they? Let's just hope he's coming again next year or something. :(

Ah shit, I'm having a very terrible headache now. Maybe I should just lie down and listen to music, and do basically nothing.

That'd be Heaven.

Haha

2008-11-02T22:32:00.001Z

Haha. Haha.
Hahaha.
What a night!
<3

The lovely faces

2008-10-26T15:42:00.007Z

I miss you guys!
:(

Tagged

2008-10-21T15:37:00.005+01:00

I know tagging games are kinda, ahem, lame but I'll still do it just because I feel kinda lame and bored. And cos its from Van, I'll just do it. XD

But tagging games are actually quite fun, no?

Here goes.

Starting Time: 15:38
Name : Huey Juen
Sisters : None
Brothers : 1
Shoe size : 5? 4?
Height : 158cm? Shut up.
Where do you live : currently in the UK.
Favourite drinks : Vodka Redbull baby!
Favourite breakfast : Cereals and a cup of hot tea.

Have you ever ....
been on a plane? : Yes
Fallen asleep at school : Yes
Broken someone's heart : Yes, and I'm sorry.
Fell off your chair : Yes
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : I think I have
Saved e-mails : Yes
What is your room like : Messy
What is right beside you : Chronicles of Narnia like wardrobe.
What is the last thing you ate : Sashimi!
Ever had chicken pox : No :(
Sore throat : Yes
Stitches : Yes, just above my neck
Broken nose : Nope. My nose still looks good!
Do you believe in love at first sight : Kinda, maybe?
Like picnics : Oh yes.
Who was/were the last person you danced with : Frida & Sheryl
Last made you laugh : that idiot in that small little tiny room.

Today did you :
Talk to someone you like : No
Kissed anyone : Nope
Get sick : No
Talk to an ex : No
Miss someone : Yes

Best feeling in the world : being loved
Do you sleep with stuffed animals : Yes and its not funny.
What is under your bed : Luggage, Box.
Who do you really hate : I don't really hate anyone.
What time is it now? : 15:49

Random :
Is there a person who is on your mind now : Yes
Do you have any siblings : Yes
Do you want children : Yes
Do you smile often : Very often.
Do you like your hand-writing : It's messy, but I don't hate it.
Are your toe nails painted : No
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in : don't mind.
What colour shirt are you wearing now : Green
What were you doing at 7.00pm yesterday : Sleeping
I can't wait till : I see you again!
When did you last cry : yesterday, stupid drama.
Are you a friendly person : I think I am?
Do you have any pets : OH YES! 4 dogs. Sam, Jupiter, Max and Harley. Sam is fierce, he doesn't quite like me or anyone. Jupiter is getting very old, but still smart. Max is my favourite, even though he stinks. But he's kinda sick and lonely now, which makes me feel like flying back home now and give him a big tight hug. Harley is loved by everyone, so I'm trying to love him less, but it's hard.
Where is the person you have feelings for right now ? : God knows!
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now : Yes
Do you sleep with the TV on? : Nope
What are you doing right now? : Just sitting on my bed, doing this stupid tag.
Have you ever crawled through a window? : Yes the kitchen window, cos I forgot the key.
Can you handle the truth? : Yes
Are you too forgiving : Yes
Are you closer to you mother or father : Father
Who was the last person you cried in front of? : the housemates.
How many people can you say you've really loved? : 2
Do you eat healthy : No
Do you still have pictures of you and your ex? : Yes
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you? : Yeah
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to? : it depends, really.
Are you loud or quiet most of the time? : Mixture of both
Are you confident? : Hmph... not really.

5 Things I was doing 10years ago :
1. playing tennis
2. hating stupid homework and spelling
3. having practically nothing on my mind to worry about
4. buying pearl milk tea from the cafe behind my school!
5. rollerblading around the residential area with my cousin and pressing random neighbour's doorbell.

5 Things on my to-do list today :
1. Clean my room
2. Arrange my notes
3. Send out emails
4. Sleep early
5. it has been my to-do list for the past one week

5 snacks I enjoy (VERY VERY VERY MUCH):
1. Krispy Kreme Original glazed doughnut.
2. Curry Puff from that pak cik in Kg. 8.
3. Strawberry Cheesecake Icecream!
4. Walkers Smoky Bacon Crisps
5. Poppadums!

5 Things I would do if I were a billionaire :
1. Travel
2. Give some to charity
3. Shop
4. Eat
5. Invest!

5 of my bad habits :
1. Eat during weird hours
2. Eat before proper meal
3. Spend unnecessarily
4. Don't drink enough water
5. leaving one or two mouth full of food on the plate

5 Places I have lived in :
1. 9403
2. 9408
3. 37 Woodruff Ave.
4. 68 Maindy
5. Desa Kiara

5 Jobs I've had (and have, currently) :
1. Waitressing in Equatorial Hotel
2. Some Korean sales thing in some supermarket
3. Sandwiched in the City staff, taking orders, making coffees etc.
4. Beauty Assistant for Lancome. Bleh.
5. Waitressing in Japanese restaurant

Last but not least, when can I ever get enough of this song?

Hello lovely faces!

2008-10-18T01:44:00.005+01:00

So, the pig is sleeping in front of me on my bed. Very reluctant to sleep in its sty. And here I am, online chatting with the some unusual people, not those familiar names I would say, but it's all good.

So, I've been talking bout my 'guy' for the past few posts, and now... I still think he's good, but I think vodka with cola sucks. Beer ftw! Okay, that was random but I really think vodka with cola sucks.

So, being in 2nd year isn't that easy. Tons of assignments, and the lecturers somehow expect quite a lot from you. But it really isn't that hard. REALLY REALLY. Only thing is, I need to pay full attention in class despite how boring the lecturer is, and go through my messily scribbled notes when I get back home. I keep telling myself that I wanna arrange my notes, everytime and almost everyday, but I guess that didn't happen. Well.... I'll make damn sure it will happen miraculously some time soon.

So, my parents and my aunt came a month ago, and my aunt, mom and I went to Ireland. Galway and Dublin, to be specific, and it was O-kay. Galway's pretty, despite the mist. Dublin's a busy city, but not quite my type of a perfect holiday destination. I don't really know what my type of a perfect holiday is but as far as I know, it's not anything like Dublin. Except for maybe the night life, but somehow, exciting nightlife isn't really what I want for now. I just need a break. But who knows? I might be up and dancing and drinking my night away the next minute.

So, back to the story. North Wales. My dad joined us a week later and we went to the most northern part of Wales and drove down back to the 'diff. Stopped by some little towns here and there, can't remember the name of it cos the Welsh words are just impossible to even pronounce. It was a nice trip, having to drive through the valleys and mountains and rivers, with the sheep busy eating grass around you. And the Connemara Sheep are sooo lovely! But really, sheep looks stupid, don't they? They do nothing but eat or stare. So with my dad around, I don't have to do the driving. And I just found out that my driving license actually expired a year ago. So now, I don't have an identity card, cos I lost it last year in my stupid Aberdare small and tiny little room, and I don't have a valid driving license. Not that it matters while I'm here, but somehow I just feel insecure.

Waaaa, cannot d la. It's 4.20am now. Bye bye.

Continue next time, and this next time is not gonna last for a month. Really really. Night folks!

Someone's back.

2008-10-11T03:03:00.001+01:00

Hello?

I am back, on track! Just hang in there darlings.... a little while more. Just a little bit more. x

How?

2008-10-03T03:01:00.001+01:00

Still can't get enough la. Shit.

Clock that goes backward

2008-09-09T02:22:00.002+01:00

my stupid laptop is lagging like a snail, or even worse. I have to wait an average of 3 seconds everytime I click on something, and the stupid thing kept popping up and say my virtual memory is low which I, being the dumb nut at all these, don't know how to solve it and hence, couldn't be bothered to do anything. God knows what's wrong with my laptop, it restarts automatically, the built-in mic sometimes doesn't work, the time keeps going an hour backwards, and I kept thinking there's still a lot of time left but in actual fact, there's ZERO time. Any computer experts out there have any idea? So basically, if I go online 5.89 hours a day, and click 387 times per hour, how many hours do I use to wait for the darn thing to load, or just move? I don't know, you do the math. What I know now is that I need to either throw this stupid thing away, and get a new one, which I do not have the money. OR, reformat the darn thing, but I don't know how, and I don't know if it'll work because I don't know how it works and I don't know how to make it work and I don't know if it will work well even if I make it work, and I don't know what am I talking because my brain is not working.

Well, I guess that means it's time to go to bed. Stupid clock still shows weird time. 1:54am, wtf.

Night out

2008-09-04T03:47:00.004+01:00

I guess I'm really not that into clubbing anymore. Unless I'm with the right people. I went clubbing today with idiot friend, Laine and her cousin, Cynthia, it was quite fun I would say. It's weird that Oceana was closed since it's a Wednesday, we still had fun in Revolution. Saw this horny couple in the toilet while Laine and I were just beside them. They were in the cubicle just beside us and Laine saw that guy taking off his pants first she was like: ''Eh, ada lelaki tepi! Dia tanggal seluar ar'. ''
I was like, o.O? So I peeked through and figured that girl was giving that guy a blow. Aiyo.

Anyway, had twice of Love Sticks and half a pint of beer, Blackjack sucks and Strawberry and cream sucks too. My pint of beer was spilled by a macha and I was already broke enough that time and thought I could enjoy my final pint of Stella before we head back but this stupid macha and his Irish friend came and DANG!, there goes my beer. Sheryl and Cynthia's dresses drank the half a pint of the beer, bet it tastes pretty good together with the dress.

Alright now, I am watching my idol again. He is just soooooooooo good. I'm just wondering when can I get enough of him, but figured its a waste of time, so I gave up dreaming of that, but still watching.

Till then. TA!

Amazingly Weird

2008-09-03T02:57:00.004+01:00

so near yet so unreacha-bly far.
as if he's so close, to me.

this is just so weird.
I think I'm close to crazy.

This summer

2008-08-30T00:42:00.007+01:00

This blog is dying, I know. It has always been like this, I know too. But eh, there's nothing much going on really.

I'll just update a little.

Been working lately, not too much, only 4 days a week. I'd love to work more and earn more during this summer because I've spent too much last year. Can't afford to do that this coming year, or in the near future. Economy is bad. If it's not because my family is coming this Sept, I would've worked 6 days a week, or maybe even more. I'm planning to quit one of the jobs anyway, can't afford to work that much when semester starts.

It's coming to September now, classes are gonna start in 3-4 weeks time, people are slowly returning, and Cardiff is gonna be filled with students, again. I don't know what's it going to be like for this coming academic year but I'm really looking forward to it to see what's in store for me. I don't hope for anything, just make sure everything goes smoothly. Oh, but one thing I really do hope is that I don't do what I've done last year. Played so much, slacked a lot, did nothing even more. I hope I can have a brand new start this time. It's not like I won't be going out AT ALL, but not till that extent definitely. It's just ridiculous!

Aiya, need to work tomorrow. Sandwiched in the City. You wanna know what does it feel like to work in a sandwich bar, preparing baguettes, paninis, coffees and teas, cappucinos and lattes, hot chocolate and what not? It's tiring, I tell you. Especially when the shop is located in the middle of the city, and when there are hundreds of people coming in everyday. I thought it was gonna be eaaasy working there. C'mon, it's just preparing baguettes and making coffees, how tiring can that be? I don't know man. You tell me. Plus, they are paying so low! It's much lower than minimum wage and the work is not easy. I love preparing food for people, but this is different. I guess some of you are probably out there saying I'm a princess and all already. I don't wanna be a princess, I don't go telling people to treat me like a princess, and I don't go around saying I am a princess. Unless my boyfriend wants to treat me like one, I don't mind. :) There are gonna be complaints every now and then, may it from people who are hardworking or even just those who can't work and sit home and do nothing all day long. It's just hard to satisfy people. But hey, I'm surviving.

As for the other Job, Tenkaichi, a Japanese restaurant, I just got this job last week. The job's pretty easy and the pay is not too bad. Plus, I get to tapao food! I tried a bit of the Unagi Chahan (Eel Fried Rice) today and it tastes good. I've always loved Japanese food. Especially the Sashimi, with lots and lots of wasabi. WOOHOO! Too bad I can't take away them, neither can I take away the eel. No idea bout eel fried rice though. But yes, Tenkaichi's good. Come during lunch time, students get 20% off!

I'd love to look for another job. May it be housekeeping or cleaning, I don't mind. There was this cleaning job in one of the university schools here but the working hour's weird. Basically, you work from 10pm till 2am when classes start, and all you do is just sweep the floor and all. Pay's good, but the working hour's just out. I don't usually sleep earlier than 2am even when term starts but it'd be too tiring and it could affect school work. I don't think I can be very determined to do it, even some of the very well disciplined one cannot promise themselves that they can. So, naaaah.

Anyway, enough of working. What's the date today? 30th August. O-kay, 10 months. Ha ha, sucker! And dear fat cousin in Melbourne, I've got you some Mr. Porky. But not too many cos it's not healthy. Even my bro and Heny miss Mr. Porky. Susah laaah...

Okay now, here are some pictures, from... long long time ago, and some not so long ago.

Look what my friends did for my birthday! :)

Thank you Chern

Birthday girl must have breakfast in bed, according to the Swedish.
Thank you Frida!

Look at that! Don't you just want to have them?
Thank you Laine!

and HA HA... tracing my present

TADAAAAA!
Thank you lovelies. :D

And just cause I haven't seen my own pictures for a long time....
So, till you're sick of me.
Here are some MeMe pictures.

Gower

Rhosilli Beach

Caerphilly Castle

Tying to act superstar-ish

Roath Park

Told you this summer will be an awesome one. :)

You

2008-08-25T01:30:00.002+01:00

ah shit.

I miss you. :(

Still 楊宗緯

2008-08-06T16:36:00.004+01:00

Another song by him that made me go, Whoa.
Take note at 2:13.
And the lyrics.... What else can I say?

為何你還來撥動我心跳?

Okay la, enough of 楊宗緯 la. Or else Nic Cheong will say I'm ah lian again, but he's really good whaaaat, can?!

楊宗緯

2008-08-05T21:43:00.006+01:00

Despite his looks, I think I fell in love with him singing this song.
Almost.

The original singer is 辛曉琪, she's great. But this guy, 楊宗緯, the way he sang it, his expression makes me tear. I don't know how I can do that, and I don't know how the hell can he do that. Check out some of his other songs on youtube.

For those who understands mandarin and loves lyrics, I think this song can somehow kill.

多麼痛的領悟
你曾是我的全部

I miss you

2008-08-05T01:50:00.005+01:00

Just a short note

you know who you people are. I'm sorry for not going back this time, but absence does make the heart grow fonder, I believe. I believe it now cos I miss those days.

I really really really really miss those days.
but I miss the people even more.

I know next July is still far away. But please, lets just stay like how we were before. Even if its only for a day.

I miss you all, and I mean it from the bottom of my heart.

Till next year, lovelies.

With lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots of the thing they call LOVE,
your BF, F. xxxxxxx

Underneath my skin

2008-08-01T01:11:00.002+01:00

I'm 21, and happy. After these years of living in this thing they call world, I've been through, not a lot, but enough for myself to learn and change, at least for now. I've been a rascal, a nuisance, the one hated by some, the one who's not understood by some, the one who's not so loyal, a betrayal, a bitch... a terrible person. But I've also been someone who doesn't mind anything. So kind and nice of a fella that I'll say 'It's Okay, don't worry.' all the time.
Everytime.

Anyway, that doesn't matter.

Some people try so hard to change to become better, and some do so little, but they've changed to a completely different person, for better or worse. It's good to know when someone changes and becomes a better person, but what happens when those things you've done earlier still linger around others minds? Or worse, some don't even give you a chance to change. See, they have the perception of you being like that before, you can't change and you won't change, because that's you. Some don't even notice a single bit. So when this happens, do you try harder so that they know and hope that they might perhaps see you from a different perspective? Or do you just stay as what you've changed into, live with it, care not about others, and learn more as the earth turns?

Perhaps I'll choose the former. Don't come telling me that you change for yourself and not for others. Don't live to their expectations, but yours. Ah, bull. Cos seriously, do you really really really really really really REALLY not care and still let them think that you are the same old brand new person, after you've done so much and tried so hard?
But again, why care so much bout others? As long as you've tried and you know you are changing, improving and learning, do you really wanna give two fucks about what others think? Having this said, I might choose the latter too.

After all, I've lived 1/5 of a century, stumbled and fell, made mistakes, learnt from it, still making mistakes, still learning, still improving, and still changing.

Like what one of my friends once said to me, "Hey! Look at my face. Do you really think I give two fucks about what others think?"
I thought that was stupid, but so damn right.

Just so you all know, this is not an emo post 'kay???
I'm not emo, and I don't cut my wrist.

Good night lovely people. x

The cousin is too adorable!

2008-07-27T01:50:00.005+01:00

See, whenever I thought of blogging, I always run out of things to blog about. Yes some might say you just blog whatever you want and whenever you want and that you don't have to have a certain thing to blog about. It's your choice, because it's your blog. And the title doesn't need to suit your content where you can put Chavs as the title but you talk about your mom and dad, I don't know? I do have something to say about, but I just can't remember it now. It always comes to my mind whenever I'm waiting for sleep to come. That's when the time I have something to say, and I've always wanted to run to the computer and turn it on and the write it out there and then. Sometimes I wish I could bring my laptop to my bed, lie down and put my laptop vertically on my bed and then type out whatever I want while lying down. But I guess that didn't come true cos I was too lazy and I figured I might get a really bad headache if I were to do that.

Anyway, why can't they just fucking sit down and not wait for xyz?? If you all don't know what I'm talking about, I guess my randomness worked then. Okay, why can't they just sit down. Seriously, why make it so, weird? I mean, it's not weird, but.... I don't know. Perhaps it's just me. Perhaps I am the weird one now. But whatever it is, I have my own reasons. Don't you get annoyed when you tell someone that you DO NOT want something, but they still shove it to you regardless? If I say I don't want it, that means I really do not what. And if you still give it to me, seriously I get irritated and rather annoyed. You don't want that to happen, do you? Anyway, I don't wanna give out too much on what I'm feeling right now. You get the picture. =)

And really, I miss my people back in Malacca. The friends, the family, basically, the people. Not that I do not like being here in Cardiff. Cardiff is a great place, UK is awesome. But still there's lack of something. I have to say some of my close friends back home aren't that sophisticated and educated like those I met here, still I think they are tremendously awesome and I feel so comfortable talking to them. No faking a smile or shedding a tear. Well I shed happy tears back home, with them. Do not get me wrong, the people here are great, but not as great. See nothing feels like home. Home is still the best but really, nothing beats 9408/9403.

It's 0537 now and I'm still talking to my cousin who's in aussie. I think I miss him too much and vice versa.

Night cuzzie! Love and miss you :)

Getting Late

2008-07-25T01:52:00.005+01:00

Oh it feels so good to have some chilled beer and cider down my throat. My stupid coursemate has his friend from Macao here for a trip, and my idiot friend is beside me talking to the Macao friend, Joey. Don't care bout my coursemate, he's dumb. It's been long since I last had beer and seriously, this feels good. Strongbow made me feel so refreshing. Ahhhhhh I miss those times. Anyway, let's not talk about beer and all. It's for you to drink and appreciate, not to.... read?

It's 0313 and they are still here. I'm so sleepy and I feel like sleeping so much. Haven't studied and I really really really REALLY need to study now. Next year wouldn't be as fun as this year as I won't have much money for me to spend and I need to work to earn. "Times are hard." That's what my mom tells me all the time. "We're trying to save here for you to study. Cut down on spending and save more." That's what I hear from her. God it feels so bad to hear all these. Sometimes I wish I didn't have to waste their money and time and effort to let me study here. And sometimes, I even think I'm not what some might think a future successful graduate student might be. No, I don't. Perhaps I'm better off working or marrying some rich man, or...or .... . I don't know. But seriously, I thought to myself everyday before I sleep, am I really those who's into studying? Or am I just another lucky little brat who gets to study abroad and all, I don't know.

I really do not know.

Anyhooliessssssssss, this is getting too boring. I want to sleep and I need to sleep.

I still miss you sometimes.
Night.

LOVE x.

WHOA

2008-07-21T01:32:00.002+01:00

After so long, I finally got the internet fixed and got my room cleaned and furniture nicely arranged, things that I was supposed to bring back to Malaysia all unpacked.

Anyway, life has been terrible for the past one week. Everything just wasn't smooth till I reached a point where I actually broke down. I don't wanna go into details of why and what happened. Everything is almost sorted out now and let's just hope everything goes smoothly after this.

*breathes*

Staying with that idiot friend of mine is no doubt very idiotic. I see her when I sleep, I see her when I shower, I see her when I brush my teeth, I see her when I wake up, I see her when I eat, I see her when I cook, I see her when I do everything and its haunting me. Ha Ha Ha, not exactly. I still love seeing her.

Okay now, enough of her. Too much of her will drive me mad. But, I haven't got anything else to say about then.

So I guess, this could be the most pointless post ever. I'm going to bed. Have got a big sty in my eye and I look like a freaking panda now.

Guten Nacht.

Summer and no Seth

2008-07-06T16:46:00.004+01:00

Having to stay back in the UK for summer is a pain when I actually planned to go back home few months ago. Plan changed in like two minutes, saying I could be going back in August. And then the next minute, something pops up again, and there... my flight is now officially cancelled and I'm not going back this summer.

It is a pain having to think of that. The thought of missing my family and friends back home is pain, I would say. It was such a sudden decision that I myself didn't have time to cope with it. Even till now, I don't feel anything. I guess when they say shit happens, it really does happen.

But seriously, I don't mind staying here now for the summer. After all, I have friends here. In fact, I have one very idiotic friend here who's enough to make my summer shine, despite the horrible weather here.

This summer will be an unforgettable one.
This summer will be a socks rocking one.

This summer will be the BEST, I bet.

no, you bet.

Sun, please shine tomorrow

2008-06-23T00:44:00.007+01:00

Off to Swansea tomorrow with my lovelies! :)

Hello Summer

2008-06-15T01:29:00.003+01:00

It's the end of the first academic year and hopefully a wonderful summer holiday awaits. Not quite a very warm summer this year but despite the changeable weather, I guess it's still bearable.

One year gone. Many things happened, little lost, and much gained. Let's not go into what I've learnt cos I think that's too cheesy. But, one thing I've really learnt is that moving and packing aren't the best thing to do especially when you have things of say, 10 people. It's amazing how my tiny little room here in Aberdare can fit in the all rubbish I have. What makes it worse is that they are mainly clothes. I scanned through the clothes in my closet and only realised that 90% of my clothes are those that I've bought here. 10% of them are brand new, and the rest... are probably worn for maximum three times. I guess this explains well enough where my money had gone to. =(

So, I'm gonna stay here for another half a month, and then I'm going back home for summer. (Oh the food! :D) Most of my friends have left, the "cili padi" is probably at home now, surprising her whole family, and another 2 "see lai" are now few thousand feet above me. Watching them leave one by one is a pain. Knowing that I have to stay here for another half a month is also a pain. It's not that I don't like staying here. Of course I do! But without the friends, and knowing that I have to pack and move and unpack again when I move to the new house, is another pain (in the ass). Seeing them leave, saying goodbyes and wishing them safe journey weren't hard, I'm still gonna see them in three months time anyway. In fact, I'll see some of them in less than three months. It was somehow more of knowing how fast a year has past, and without realising, we've grown, a year older. Not like it matters much to me how we looked like a year ago, but more to the other side of the story. Some has graduated, and even got a job here. It somehow made me feel like it's another different stage in life. Having to earn your own money, feed yourselves, and perhaps, repay parents. Doesn't sound quite fun, but I'm looking forward to it. Well yes, I'm only moving on to second year this coming Sept, but I guess that road is not that far. Anyway, this is getting too cheesy.

"You look around you and you are surrounded by those you have fought side by side all season long, the ones you have laughed and joked with, the ones you will never forget, and the ones you love." (Wilson, M. 2008)

the ones I love, Fun in the Park someday?

22 days to go!

LOVE x.

So, what's next?

2008-06-03T19:57:00.006+01:00

Phone rang the other day, and I saw Witheld on the screen. Looked at it for a while, heart skipped two beats, wondering who could it be.
I answered, and boy I swear that 'Hello' sounded familiar. Like the way you'd always say.
For a split second, I thought it was you.
Heart stopped three beats this time.
I hoped it was you, perhaps calling a few days late to wish me happy birthday.
But NO, it wasn't.

Guess I'm hoping too much. Oh no wait a minute. I don't hope for a hope, its just... whenever I see a Witheld calling me, I always thought it's you. It's not gonna happen, it was never You, and never will it be You. I know. I know well enough. But sometimes, there are just times when you just miss something. Something you guys have done before, something sweet.

Something bittersweet.

Once in a while, I wonder if you really took it that easy, or was it just a 'Guy' thing that they have to act as if they are doing fine. Where on the contrary, it's a typical 'Girl' thing to cry, and act as if they are not okay, but in actual fact, they ARE not okay. I also do wonder if you'd think about the past, and perhaps chuckle a little before you go to bed.

Anyway, never mind. That was just a thought. A very random thought.

Alright now, kiddo. Enough of ramblings. It's not gonna help, sweetheart.

After so long, I'm finally done with exams and there goes my first year (if everything goes well). Fingers crossed, aight. Exams can kill. Not that it really kills, but it somehow leads to procrastination, thinking that I still have much time to study. And after one day, I still think I have enough time to study. And another day, and another, and another..... till the very last minute. Speaking of silent killer, aye? I procrastinate so much, that I couldn't believe it myself. It's just... ridiculous. Boy, I stayed up late, sleeping for only an hour before exam, or sometimes, Zero hour, only because I have so much to read and memorize. Thanks to me skipping classes, doing all the last minute work, thinking I'm some kinda genius who can understand what the syllabus are in two days where the others learn it for 9 whole months, and STILL thinking that I can manage to finish and understand everything all by myself. Who said it was easy to go through everything, starting from scratch, and trying to figure out what it is that the stupid sentence was trying to tell me when I had to read the same sentence over and over again, thinking what my brain should or should not absorb? It seriously wasn't easy.

It went alright for the first two papers, but I felt I was very close to dying when it comes to the third one. Neck aching, stiff shoulders, eye lids weighing at 100 ton, weak hands, stomach growling. Brain barely functioning. The only thing I managed to escape from was falling sick at that very moment. I was also very close to giving up when I was about to sit for my final paper, but I guess that didn't happen.

So I told myself, there's NO WAY this is happening again next year. No more last minute work, no more procrastinating. C'mon you big girl, THINK.

Now, I'm done with exams. So what's next?

OKAY, I think I kinda screwed today's paper

2008-05-29T15:02:00.002+01:00

which is why I'm listening to this song over and over again. Don't ask why.
Fuck it if it doesn't make sense. There's never even a single sense made in that stupid paper, or rather, Me.

Ugh, I feel so lousy, but this song somehow made me feel better.

Ay, I still feel lousy. =(

the May babies

2008-05-27T20:03:00.011+01:00

HAPPY HAPPYYYY BIRTHDAY, LOVELIES!

the may 27th babies

and the may 28th babies

I know its a pain to have birthdays during exams,
but heh, we're special enough,
aren't we?

Happy 20th and 21st birthday!

Ha! My very lovely cousin posted up some reaaaaaally adorable pictures of us when we were little on his blog, just because I requested him to post a birthday entry for me.

God, I almost melted when I saw it. =)

Oh, and my very annoying and irritating but lovely friend did this....

... and put it as his dp because it was my birthday.
red party hat with yellow polka dots.
''It's my fucking birthday! =)''

I just couldn't stop smiling.

Just because he's done with exams, I asked if he could help me to spot some questions for my coming papers.
He said: 'honestly i don't know how to spot questions i've never studied, you go study, I'll see what I can do.'

And this was what he did.

'i google'd and wiki'd until my head exploded, me is not genius. I'm so sleepy. I'm going to bed now. Good night precious.'

Ha Ha Ha.
I am so sorry! It didn't help much, but I REALLY appreciate it.
Thank you.

3 more papers to go! =)

With love,

the may 26th baby

Exams? Eat it.

2008-05-23T03:20:00.006+01:00

2 papers down, 4 more to go.

It's taking forever. Somehow the time passes so slowly when I want this to be over as soon as possible. 4 papers next week with only a day break in between. Let me go through this well.

Please.

haha its funny when I bumped into my friend, Lisa, one morning at 5am.

me: (walking out from the toilet) Hey
Lisa: (walking out from the bathroom) Heyy
me: you just showered? (what a stupid question to ask! of course she just showered. She's in her bathrobe and her hair is wet, you stupid.)
Lisa: Err, yeah.

*both walked to our rooms*

me: So, you just woke up?
Lisa: Err, yeah. You too?
me: Owh. No? I'm gonna sleep now. Good night.
Lisa: o.O?

I feel like I could run around the football field for 5 big rounds now and still feel so energetic. My sleeping hours are so screwed. Sleeping at 5am almost everyday, waking up at 8 for breakfast, back to sleep till 1pm, wake up, eat, music music music, internet internet, msn msn msn, facebook facebook, and then lazily take out my books and start reading the same line over and over again. And then its time for dinner! Eat, shower, sleep for an hour till say, 9pm, wake up and walk lazily to the library, and finally, (phew!) STUDY.

Speaking of study, I just realised I have so much to read up, so little time. I once saw one of my friend's pm saying, 'If we really learn from our mistakes, we'll be a fucking genius by now.' Ha ha. Seriously, if I've learnt from my mistake, I wouldn't be doing the last minute work and staying up late and sleeping at weird hours.

But again, seriously, who does? Sure all last minute wan maaaah!
And, back to Lisa, where got people sleep at 10 and wake up at 5 to study waaaaaan?
Crazy.

Anyway, stop dreaming.
Last minute work doesn't work. Now you, for this last few days, Study, and sit for exams.

Lights. Camera.
Now you're on.

Up to the Mountain

2008-05-13T01:05:00.005+01:00

Kelly Clarkson feat. the legendary Jeff Beck

It's just, beautiful.

Exam

2008-05-11T22:01:00.007+01:00

Starts Now.

I don't know how much am I prepared for tomorrow's paper. I hope its enough to just pass cos I don't wanna come back in august for stupid resit. As for other papers, I don't know. The one on wed which is accounting, is errr.... Okay I guess? Another 4 papers which one of them is right after my birthday, are shite. I haven't started anything on it and hopefully, I could finish during the 12 days break. Seriously, if I can't pass, I could just go rot in one corner, and perhaps die. And if I pass, I could also sit in one corner, and roll down some happy tears, and then run around and start giving random hugs to random people! o.O?

0 down, 6 to go. June 2nd is not far away.
Like what Michael Scofield said, 'Have a little faith.'

To you all, best of luck. :)

and smile :), it's summer.

Kirksman Teo

2008-05-09T16:47:00.000+01:00

Kirksman Teo Wei Heng, why are you so Gay?

Hello sunshine :D

2008-05-07T05:44:00.003+01:00

Good morning world!

My sleeping hours are practically screwed up, thanks to accounting. But I guess somehow its worth it, cossssss I managed to figure out how to do solve the questions all by myself &&..... Ha ha ha ha ha, this sounds funny coming out from my mouth but ha ha ha, I think I quite like accounting after all.

To ChiaYi, *drink tea and HAR HAR* (don't be so lame can or not chinchiayi?)

The sun is out, and I'm going to bed now.
Good night.

Accounting? Can eat?

2008-05-04T03:20:00.004+01:00

One more week till exam starts, and after the 14th, I have like 12 days to cover 4 subjects. How great.
It's the exam fever now and everyone's so stressed out. Even little trivial things might cause anyone to go berserk.
Take me for example.
Everyone knows how much I do not like accounting. I avoid using the word 'Hate' because, no, hate is a strong word. Plus, I do not NOT like accounting THAT much till I have to use that word. In fact, I RARELY use it. Okay, back to the story.
I do not like accounting. Only because, the stupid account cannot be balanced. Oh no wait, I managed to balance it, but the answer wasn't the right one. And you know how annoying and frustrating it could be. Having to check all over again and see what stupid mistakes I've done, go through everything, from the beginning till the end. But in actual fact, all I did was NOTHING, but inserted the wrong number on the calculator. (Smart, aye?)

Fuck.

You know I could be VERY VERY patient. In fact I think my patience level is like, unreachable. (Haha.) I don't mind waiting for people for like god knows how long. I don't mind having to tolerate with ridiculous and stubborn people, and whatever you could think of. Really, I don't. But this time, I swear I almost went crazy. I wanted to throw the calculator away as far as I could and at that moment, I wished no one invented the calculator. I wished even more that accounting never existed, but I guess it didn't come true.

Stupid fuck.

I do not hate accounting.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

I just... don't like it.

Anyway, good luck in your exams guys! Don't study hard, but study smart. =)

Funny why people just love to wish for things that would not come true. Here's another one.
I wish I could burn all the business books in the world.
.... and I don't think it'll come true neither.

Good night, lovelies.

Have you got a disease?

2008-04-30T02:28:00.007+01:00

was browsing through my pictures and i found this.
''Hi, we are at the phone booth. help us to check if the lodge is clear ...'' (and couldn't type anything there anymore cos the phone is just stupid)
ooh, fun times. having to sneak Miss Sheryl Toh in and out of Aberdare and hide in the phone booth while waiting for the person in charge to go home.
We were supposed to send it to someone in the hall to ask her to check if whether or not the person in charge has gone home but the stupid phone doesn't work. I even put in 20p and there goes... :(

Matchbox 20's concert is tomorrow.
Did I tell you how much I love them?
I wanna go to their concert sooooo badly but..... no money! no time! How to gooooo?
Stupid fuck.

because of this song, I fell for them.
and because of what happened just a few days back, I think this song suits me well.
Very well.

Check this out.

Feels like you made a mistake
You made somebody's heart break
But now I have to let you go
I have to let you go

Damn right I have to.

Jon Mclaughlin - Beautiful Disaster

2008-04-29T03:12:00.008+01:00

She loves her mama's lemonade,
Hates the sounds that goodbyes make.

She prays one day she'll find someone to need her.
She swears that there's no difference,
Between the lies and complements.
It's all the same if everybody leaves her.

And every magazine tells her she's not good enough,
The pictures that she sees make her cry.

And she would change everything, everything just ask her.
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster,
And she needs someone to take her home.

She's giving boys what they want, tries to act so nonchalant,
Afraid they'll see that she's lost her direction.
She never stays the same for long,
Assuming that she'll get it wrong.
Perfect only in her imperfection.

She's not a drama queen,
She doesn't want to feel this way, only seventeen but tired

She would change everything for happy ever after.
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster,
But she just needs someone to take her home.

Cuz she's just the way she is, but no ones told her that's ok.

And she would change everything, everything just ask her.
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster,

And she would change everything for happy ever after.
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster,

But she just needs someone to take her home
And just needs someone to take her home.

ps, this version is a live, and I think its just simply awesome.
and thank you for getting this video for me, you know who you are.

Message in a Bottle

2008-04-25T01:36:00.012+01:00

Ever received good night messages from friends back home, and saying they miss you badly, or even just a random pointless message?
Well I have, and I'm pretty sure everyone else has had it before.

''hey few days back I dreamt of you. you came back and you were dancing me against the music by the road and there was a mamak stall. Weird dream. XD Missing you''

''Lunch/brunchtime! Later I'll wear my kung-fu shirt (all the way from Beijing weh) and mms you babeh''

''A thought came to my head. Buy readers digest in england. Then collect them and pass them to me when you get back. I wanna read them all.''

''Shiny happy people holding hands~ R.E.M rocks, bajuju!''

''Good night pokemon rat''

''Night sweetheart''

''Did I tell you that I miss you so much? I'm havin a tough day, so I just thought of you suddenly. Just thought of your laughs and it made me smile.''

''Wake up the house is on fire. And the cat's gone in the dryer.''

''Hey, missing you like crazy. Wish you're here.''

''wo bu ke yi sui jiao. gu gu jiao. I need to smoke. Thought of quitting but I keep forgetting whenever I light up one =(''

''You is monkeh and I is hungreh''

Aaahhhh, its always good to read old messages, especially while lying on the bed, listening to ipod, waiting for sleep to come.
Many wtf messages, but it never failed to make me smile. Never.

Anyway, been pretty busy lately. It's been ages since I last really studied. I'm not saying I am very hardworking now, because compared to the others, I'm only like, 1/10 of them. The thing is, you've really got to see how I study before this. Oh that sounded so wrong. In fact, I've never really studied, as in serious studying. Again, its not like I'm VERY serious now but I somehow feel that I am better compared to how I was before. Back to the topic, been really busy lately. I doubt I can finish all the modules for the coming exam. First paper on the 12th of May, and last one on the 2nd of June. BOOOOO.

Demand. Supply. Average cost. Marginal Cost. Elasticity. Perfect Competition. Long Run. Short Run. Run run runnnnn runaway!

Ah, sick of it. Here are some random pictures from random places. (mind you, there are some fugly ones)

Nicole is Mr. Jelly?

LOVE is in the air

Heineken yo!

check out the time.

... and check out the time now.

stupid economics lecturer.
*hangovers permitting. Yours and mine.
wtf

Walau-eh.

I loooove this pic.
Look at Yvonne! Sooooo cute.

Cartoon

Cartoon face.

F. jogging.

Luiz's birthday, and I don't understand why he needs to wear a suit to lectures on his big day.

Another cartoon.

meet Jack, Babi Choo and Wai Cheong!

Walau-eh #2

Walau-eh #3

And I've dug out some old pictures from last CNY.

Sis in Law and the botak fat cousin

Another fat cousin and sis in law

the stupid wig on TP

Dang!

the annoying uncle

giant and midget

Another annoying uncle

ah beng cousin. HAHA.
(Charlaine's gonna kill me)

the brother!

if that ain't enough....

my very hyper dad and I, with the very ugly wig and stupid face.
DANGGGG!

TAAAAAAAAAAAA!
xoxo

the sweetest thing

2008-04-21T01:16:00.006+01:00

I don't know if this is what they call homesick. I don't quite think so, but I do somehow miss home. Not my bed, not the sofa, not the big tv, but the people, the dogs, little bit of the food, and.... that's about it. The late nights with my dad, sipping wine, drinking beer, eating crisps, finishing the whole big packet of Ngan Yin peanuts, watching tv, well literally 'forcing' my dad to watch MTV/Channel V and annoying Wah Lai Toi's HK drama, (he finds it annoying, i don't know why)... basically, just killing time. No big fuss about anything, just plain talking. I remember challenging my dad to see how well I can drink. So he bought like alot of carlsberg, and I have to drink the same amount as him at the same speed until I think I cannot drink anymore. That was fun! Not because of the drinking, but because of him.

Dad to die for

And then comes my mom, who doesn't encourage us to drink. Well, who does? A mom's gotta do what a mom's gotta do. Nagged and nagged, and nagged, like there's no tomorrow. But I kinda miss it now. So, we had to drink it when she's sound asleep. Funny how I noticed my dad, the moment I greet my mom good night and the moment she goes up the stairs... Jeng Jeng JENG! Comes the whiskey, the beer, the wine, the vodka!, or whatever you could name. Apart from the never ending nagging, there's also... nagging. The thing is, if she doesn't nag, I'll find it weird, and uncomfortable. And because of her, I'm well trained. In a way, I'm immune to that, but I still listen and absorb what she says. (At least I do now.) Ah damn I miss them. Forget about the brother, he doesn't quite talk to me. But I know he loves me more than anything. And wait, I guess I haven't told you guys this yet. I'm gonna be an aunt soon! My sis in law is expecting a November baby! I'm soooo excited!!

World's best mom

And then there are my dogs. My very lovely dogs. Max and Harley. (or Xiao Bai) Okay, I don't wanna talk about how lovely my dogs are because they are just ridiculously lovely.

Harley

Max

and Chuck!
Okay Chuck is my cousin's dog, not mine. :(

Aren't they the cutest thing?

If I'm a chocolate, I've already melted.

2008-04-13T17:51:00.003+01:00

I seem to have walked all the way from Brooklyn, to your doorstep.
Without a jacket, in the snow.
So, what the hell?

"I miss you, and I have been missing you, for a while."